Love Letter from an Online Crush to my Neurotic Self who is Now My Husband

Is it ok if I love and hate you also? I think at least you wouldn’t be alone. I hate how you are. You could be so cool with yourself, if you just saw it. I love how you are because you make me laugh and feel good about myself. I hate how you put yourself down and constantly think you need me, yet I love that you constantly need me. I hate that you are a shut in because the world could really use someone like you, and I love how you make my world a better place. I hate that you can’t stand bugs, but i love how meticulously you take care of yourself. I hate how you like all these herbs and supplementals, and i love how aware you are of your body. I hate how afraid you are of showing off what you look like, and I love how you look. I hate how you hate yourself, but I love how there’s a little part of you that doesn’t. I hate how you constantly read on everything that bothers you and think that you have those ailments or whatnot, and I love how intelligent you are about different subjects because of it. I hate how you can’t enjoy a walk by a beautiful pond, but love how your beautiful ponds and days are in your head, so you at least don’t miss out on them. I hate how I’ve never touched you, but I love how i feel like i have.

I'm not sure what else to say, I love and hate you also. So get over it and start living. Cause I love you more than I hate you, and I hope at least that counts for something.

Writer, Wife, Mama to many. My book of poetry, "Wandering Through the Darkness" can be found at https://tinyurl.com/yaos7vp3 Visit me at Misfit-believer.com

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