Navigating Bipolar with a Mix of Spirituality
Today has a whole different feel than yesterday. Since I have Bipolar 1 Disorder, I tend to go through quite intense mood swings.
Accompanied by my mood swings are changes with my energy levels, either going very high, or extremely low. This can become quite frustrating because they are usually completely unpredictable. It’s almost like I have two people inside of my body- the hyper me, and the depressed me, and nothing in between.
It’s still hard for me to admit to myself that I have Bipolar 1. As a teenager, it was one of my biggest fears. I remember seeing the effects this illness caused my Grandma. She still struggles with it all of these years later.
Today I have been reading Bible verses in the hopes of having a soothing experience, where my soul will mend, and also have the reminder of how much God loves all of us. When I’m feeling low, these types of verses speak to me in a holistic manner; especially during a bubble bath!
Here are a few of the verses I’ve been reading:
Romans 15:3 (NLT)
I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.
Psalm 77:26 (NLT)
My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.
Romans 8:31 (NLT)
What shall we say about things so wonderful as these? If God be for us, who can be against us?
Philippians 4:6–7 (NLT)
Don’t worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand, His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
Even when we don’t feel as good as we may have felt yesterday, or even last week, we still have a reason to keep going forward. These verses help me get the roadblock out of my way, so I can keep going. I don’t ever want to give up. It’s no longer an option, but this time I want to go forward, fear free.
I’m not saying that fear will never come over me again, but I do not have to let the fears I have dictate who I am and what I am capable of doing. I have tried giving up in the past, which made me take a step backwards in the opposite direction of where I want my life to go.
If we focus on the positive, or in my case, at least not look at the possible worst case scenarios, our perspective can change. I am now willing to move forward, and be free from my pity party. I’ve been hanging around the same dull spots long enough. It’s time to put these verses to action.
Though my Bipolar 1 will not be going away, my negative mindset can be turned around if I am willing to take the initiative to change my mind. I do not have to be controlled by my illness. The more I begin to discipline my mind with these verses, and through being more proactive within my treatment, things will definitely start to look up for me, no matter what external factors may be involved.
Having an eclectic variety of self help options really helps me, whether it be baths full of essential oils, soothing music, a nice nap, reading my favorite book, or a therapy session.
Bible verses are the icing on the cake for me, and helps keep me grounded in my faith. I hope you enjoyed them as well.
Thanks for reading! :)